narayan thapa

Narayan Thapa:: Redhat Certified Engineer(RHCE), Redhat Certified Technician(RHCT),PHP Programmer and IT consultant from Nepal

Curently, i am hanging on 2 MLM project. However, blog need to update. I just loocked sachin’s blog and used his content to update it.

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Why Women Cry…

An old article that have done magic :-

A little boy asked his mother, “Why are you crying?”

“Because I’m a woman,” she told him.

“I don’t understand,” he said.

His Mom just hugged him and said, “And you never will.”

Later the little boy asked his father, “Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?”

“All women cry for no reason,” was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put prayer to God who would surely know the answer.

When God responded he asked, “God, why do women cry so easily?”

God said: “When I made the woman she had to be made special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. Gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And lastly, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers and only hers exclusively to use whenever she needs it.

She needs no reason, no explanation, its hers.”

“You see my son,” said God, “the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.”

So.. This is my humble request… Plzzz plzzz learn to respect women ! !

I came back from Pokhara on 3rd baishak. I know after that I need to work for IBB, readnepal and Besctommercetools (USA). Now, I am not taking RHCE classes at IID due to lack of time. However I used to work around 18 hrs everyday.

There was bunch of projects that need to complete on time. Ujyaalo FM, Gorkha Fm (website including live streaming) then jabegu ( Archana’s project), samatra, pashmere.us and CMS for National Information Technology Center, MLM system and regular job at BCT.

I wish, if I can make my duplicate using copy/paste of my keyboard. I wish to make my hands more on required time. I wish to use my single cell of mind to handle individual projects with coordinating single fingers and I wish to extend/zoom of minutes on every hour.

Hopeless wish, that can’t fulfill. What I need to do first? Confusing, all need to complete on time. I have started with Ujyaalo FM, because Gopal sir (Gopal Guragai) already requested to make complete before 29th April. Date was 9th anniversary of Ujyaalo FM and we was already planned to make live streaming from that date.

It was a CMS as well to update news frequently on Unicode. I have done that. Same time I have used for Gorkha FM because it was already late to lunch online streaming and Prakash sir and Padam sir was angry with us. Not more, I have used some hours for this as well.

Now we can listen Ujyaalo FM at www.unn.com.np and Gorkha FM at www.gorkhafm.com.

What I need to do then, Surely Jabegu.com. I have requested more 6 days to complete this site. It was also already delayed. We were supposed to complete it by April 30 and I have not started to work again after New Year.

I was quite sure to complete on time this project. And I was serious as well. I was sure to complete this project using my next 24 hours. It was morning of 30 April and just 24 hours remaining. I have started to work on it. I have requested to collect product details with Archana and her guys. On that 24 hours, I am able to give 20 hours hardly on that project.

Result? We can think. Client fired with us. I was on chat with him. He was ok at beginning but at last he need that project complete by next day. I request to send feedback on completed parts and he said “read all emails that I have sent from 1st April”. I have forwarded that chat to Archana and said “sorry”. That make hurt to Archana. Project has been cancelled. Client gave list of his loss. He was totally depending with us. Archana fired with me. She emailed me and gave me thanks for that wonderful gift that I have given her.

I am sorry Archana for this. My apologies but that happen without any bad intention. I am sorry Jabegu.

She became angry. Sadhana did you told her anything? But still a lot project that need to do something. Started from pashmere.us ,samatra then now started CMS and MLM system.

21 days. A lot thing happens. Some projects completed and some new got and some are waiting for me. Archana became angry and who is happy ?

Not always, I used to write something when I became lazy. Sometimes story, sometimes poem and sometimes other things. Previously I was working on media (newspapers). So, I love to write (to be lazy :) ). Here I have copied/pasted a story that I have written and published on Nepal Magzine dated chaitra 24, 2060. Story can be found on “sahitya” link through following URL:

http://www.kantipuronline.com/Nepal/Archive/86th%20issue/index.html


Sketchअफिसबाट र्फकंदा प्रायः म पैदल नै र्फकने गर्छु । सांझको शीतल हावासंगै कसैका बारेमा सोच्नु अथवा वस्तुस्थितिका बारेमा विश्लेषण गर्नुको अर्कै मज्जा हुन्छ । अझ साथमा केही खाने चीज होस्, बाटो काटेको पत्तै हुंदैन । आज म मृत्युका बारेमा कल्पना गर्दै थिएं । सिनेमा, पत्रपत्रिका र उपन्यासमा देखेको मृत्यु । तर अलि फरक किसिमले । मृत्यु, म र म वरिपरिको वातावरणका बारेमा ।
प्रायः म मृत्युदेखि नडराउने मान्छे । म ठान्छु, पायो भने म जतिबेला पनि मर्न तयार रहन्छु । अथवा भनौं युद्धरत सिपाहीले शत्रुको प्रतीक्षा गरी बसेझै म मृत्युको प्रतीक्षा गरिरहेको छु । त्यसमा कुनै भाव छैन, अत्यास छैन, त्रास र छटपटी छैन । मृत्यु आयो, ल हिंड् भन्यो म तयार । ऊसंगै जानका लागि, त्यस्तै लाग्छ ।

मलाई लाग्छ, म मेरो जति नै प्रिय मानिस मरे पनि रुंदिन । म ठान्छु, यो सत्य हो । सबै मर्नुपर्छ भने किन रुने - कोही मर्दा उसका आफन्त रोएको र मर्दै गरेको मान्छे डराएको देख्दा लाग्छ, यो सबै वाहियात कुरो हो ।

आज म मेरो आफ्नै मृत्युका बारेमा कल्पना गर्दै थिएं । अहिले नै म मरें भने के हुन्छ - घर खबर पुग्छ । अरुलाई थाहा नदिईकन दाइ वा अरु नै कोही मेरो शव लिन आउनुहुन्छ । सबैभन्दा पहिलो काम नै त्यही हुन्छ । हतार हतारमा मेरो शवमाथि आगो लगाइन्छ । क्षणभरमै म खरानी हुन्छु । बिस्तारै-बिस्तारै म अर्थात् मेरो खरानी पानीमा बगाइन्छ । मलामीहरुले सहानुभूति दिन्छन् । म जति नै नराम्रो भए पनि त्यो दिन मेरो राम्रो पक्षका बारेमा मात्र चर्चा हुन्छ । बिचरा, ऊ यस्तो थियो वा यस्तो गर्ने भन्दै थियो, यस्तै-यस्तै । उफ् कस्तो पीडादायी क्षण अरुहरुका लागि ।

जे होस्, बिस्तारै घरमा आमाबुबालाई थाहा हुन्छ । मलाई थाहा छ, आमा एकदमै रुनुहुनेछ । कुन आमालाई पो आफ्नो जवान छोरो मर्दा दुःख नलाग्ला ? उफ् आमाको रुवाइ । एकदमै रुनुहुनेछ । एक दिन, दुइ दिन अथवा अरु केही दिन । खाना खानुहुनेछैन । केहीमा पनि रुचि हुनेछैन । मेरो मृत्युको बारेमा सोच्दा सबैभन्दा पहिला कसैका बारेमा सोच्छु भने उहां आमा नै हो ।
बुबा, वृद्ध बुबा । मलाई लाग्छ, बुबाले त्यति धेरै पीर त गर्नुहुनेछैन । म मान्छु बुबामा अलिकति सम्हालिन सक्ने क्षमता छ अथवा उहां मेरो मृत्यु सहने कोसिस गर्नुहुनेछ ।
घर केही दिन अस्तव्यस्त हुनेछ । आमासंगै बहिनी, दिदीहरु, फुपू रुनुहुनेछ । यो मेरो कल्पना मात्र हो । भाउजू पनि रुनुहुनेछ । दाइका बच्चाहरु र भान्जा-भान्जीलाई त त्यति थाहा हुनेछैन । भए पनि ती बिस्तारै फकिइहाल्छन् । भाइ र दाइ…, भाइका बारेमा त ऊ के गर्छ - भन्नै सक्दिन । सायद दुःख मान्ला । तर दाइ, उहांले एकदमै गार्हो मान्नुहुनेछ । सायद रुनु पनि हुन्छ कि - एउटा जवान भाइको मृत्यु, उहांलाई योभन्दा गाहो के हुन सक्छ ?
गाउंमा एक-दुइ दिन चर्चा हुनेछ । शत्रु त भएजस्तो लाग्दैन तैपनि जानिजानी कसले पो शत्रु कमाएको हुन्छ र - साथीभाइ - ती पनि एक-दुइ दिन चर्चा गर्ने मात्र हुन् । यो त सामान्य भइहाल्यो ।
काठमाडौंमा दुइ-चार दिन मेरो अफिससंग सम्बन्धित बोस र स्टाफहरुमा चर्चा चल्न सक्छ । बिचरा यो उमेरमा है, लौ न नि यस्तै-यस्तै । अफिसमा चर्चा मात्र चल्ने न हो । त्यहां भन्दा बढी केही होलाजस्तो त लाग्दैन ।

बिस्तारै १३ दिन बित्नेछ । यो १३ दिनमा घरको अवस्था, दैनिक कामकाज डांवाडोल हुनेछ । आफन्तहरुटाउकोमा हात राखेर घोत्लिनेछन्, काजकिरिया को बस्ला ?
१३ दिनका दिन मलामी खुवाउने काम हुनेछ । काजकिरिया सिद्धिनेछ र आमा, दिदीहरु र अरु कोही पनि बिस्तारै सामान्य अवस्थामा आउनेछन् । १४ दिन, एक महिना अनि बिस्तारै सबैले मलाई बिर्सनेछन् । ऊ थियो र, ख्यालै हुनेछैन । मेरो मन पर्ने चीजवस्तु नजिक हुंदा मलाई सम्झेर आमा फेरि रुनुहुनेछ । मलाई थाहा छ, उहां एकदमै रुनुहुनेछ ।

जे होस्, म बिस्तारै सबैको स्मृतिबाट हट्नेछु । कसैको फोटोसंगै म पनि छु भने म मरेको थाहा पाएको भए ऊ भन्नेछ, बिचरा, यो पनि अकालमै मर्यो है । जसले जति माया गर्छुनै भने पनि उसले १३ दिनसम्म मात्र न हो सम्झने । मैले पनि त्यही हो, अरुले पनि त्यही हो ।

पांच वर्षघिको आफ्नै जन्मदिनका दिन लेखेको डायरीको पाना पढेर हांसो लाग्छ । अहं, अर्थहीन-पीडायुक्त हांसो । मैले कति सजिलै आफ्नो मृत्युका बारेमा सोच्न र लेख्न सकेको हुंला - जोडले हांस्न मन लाग्छ, चिच्च्याएर रुन मन लाग्छ ।

म अस्पतालको बेडमा छु । विगत कोट्याउन डायरीका पाना पल्टाउंदै । हतास मनस्थितिमा, एकदमै हतास । छेउमा श्रीमती छिन् । न्यास्रो अनुहार म देख्नै सक्दिन । उनी मेरी प्रेयसी, मलाई एकदमै माया गर्ने मान्छे ।
दाइ आउनुहुन्छ । साथमा डाक्टर पनि छ । ऊ दाइलाई ढाडस दिंदै छ । दाइको फुंग उडेको अनुहार । बिरामीको छेउमा को पो खुसी भइरहेको हुन्छ र ? तैपनि त्यो त्यस्तो चेहरा थिएन । केही गुमाउंदाको पीडायुक्त चेहराजस्तो ।

म त बिरामी भइहालें । श्रीमतीले सोध्छिन्, उहांलाई कहिले निको हुन्छ ? उहांलाई खास भएको के ?
कलेजोमा समस्या छ, दुइ-चार दिन अझै अस्पतालमा बस्नुपर्छ, डाक्टरले जवाफ दिएर गयो । दाइ केही बोल्नुभएको छैन । मलाई लाग्छ, उहांहरु केही लुकाइरहनुभएको छ, रोगका बारेमा र मेरो अवस्थाका बारेमा म र मेरी श्रीमतीसंग ।

आज अझ पीडा थपिएको छ । हिजो त केही समय बेहोस पनि भएछु, कमजोरीले पो हो कि ? श्रीमती ज्यादै आत्तिएकी छन् । दाइ, उहांको चेहरा त उडेकै छ पहिलेदेखि नै । आज बिहान अस्पतालमा एकजना कलेजोको बिरामी मरेको खबर सुनाइन् श्रीमतीले । उनी पनि म मर्छुकि भनेर डराएकी छन् ।
मलाई व्यथाले एकदमै च्यापेको छ । दाइले गाउंमा खबर पठाउनुभएको रहेछ सायद । घरबाट मलाई हेर्न आउनुभएको छ । उहांहरु आत्तिनुभएको छ । आफन्त र साथीहरुको भीड पनि बढ्दो छ ।
मलाई आज एकदमै डर लागेको छ । म मर्दै छुजस्तो लाग्छ सबैको चेहरा देखेर । मलाई सबैले बिनासित्ति ढाडस दिएजस्तो लाग्छ । कसैले पनि मलाई मेरो सही स्थितिका बारेमा बताउंदैनन् । सायद आत्तिन्छ भनेर पो हो कि ?

तर मेरो मनस्थिति एकदमै बिग्रिसकेको छ । म यस संसारलाई छाडेर जांदैछु । कहा? - थाहा छैन । डायरीको पानामा जे लेखे पनि आज म मृत्युको कल्पना पनि गर्न सक्दिन। अझ केही वर्षबांच्ने मन छ । म, मेरी प्रेयसी, घरपरिवार, साथीभाइ र यस राम्रो संसारबाट टाढा जांदैछु । सबैसंग छुथतिदैछु । प्रेयसी, बिचरी मेरो मृत्युपछि के गर्लिन् ? कल्पनै गर्न सक्दिन । उनको पेटमा हुर्किरहेको बच्चा, मेरो बच्चा । म यहां आफ्नो संसार छोडेर जांदै छु । इज्जत, मान-सम्मान, व्यवसाय, पैसा, आफन्त र मेरो आफ्नै प्यारो संसार । उफ् कति पीडादायी क्षण ।

डाक्टर आउंछ फेरि जांच्न । यो सबै नियमित सिलसिला हो । म डाक्टरसंग याचना गर्छु, प्लिज डाक्टर, मलाई बचाऊ, मलाई मर्न मन छैन । एकदमै कारुणिक आवाजमा आफ्नो जीवनको भिख माग्छु । सधैं नआत्तिनुहोस्, चांडै ठीक हुन्छ भन्ने डाक्टर आज केही बोल्दैन । या त आस मारिसकेको हुनुपर्छ अथवा मेरो आवाज एकदमै दबेको छ । उसले बुझ्दैन अथवा सुन्दैन । मैले मात्रै बोलेको छु, मनबाट अथवा मुखबाट कसैले नसुन्ने गरी । बिचरा डाक्टर, ऊ के जीवन दिन सक्थ्यो ।

डाक्टर जान्छ । ऊसंगै दाइ पनि जानुभएको छ । मलाई थाहा छ, म मर्दैछु । केही समयपछि आफ्नो संसारलाई छोडेर सबैलाई रुवाउंदै । मलाई कसैले बचाउन सक्दैन । कसैले बचाउन सक्छ - म याचना गरिरहेको छु ।

pokharaHi all. It’s too late to make wish you all for your success, good health and mainly for your happiness on this new year.. however be lated happy near.I hope, you all enjoyed on this great time to say bye for 2063 and to welcome 2064 for great change and success on your career and on your life positively.

Last year for me, not so bad as usual (ramra manchhe lai ramrai hunchha . kidding) and not super also. As I said on English New Year, we started some good works let see it’s impact on society, me and my team later. However we have started.

And plan, nothing. Just I want to go.. go and go ahead (where I don’t know haha).

My career, it’s going on. There are not any huge changes made.

Relations, it was good with family and friends. Some relations were not as sweet as I was on aspect. However it’s life and need to go on.. You can’t stop it anyway ;)

Beginning of this year, we (readnepal team) enjoyed (?) at Pokhara. We were 8 to visit many places that we ever visited before. Snap, snap and snap. Kehi ramra and kehi naramra.. ramra manchheka ta ramrai aaya and mera.. hehe however negative herer chitta bhujhauda hunchha (sorry guy, I just take your word here). It was not so good as we was thinking. Right guys? Some “tush” there ?? I don’t know. Please forgive me if I was wrong there anyway.  just forget all things and smile (that is good for health) haha.

We have visited Pokhara utsab (with ntv live), ping, fewa, boating, gbs (sarara hawa) begnash (chhal), chamere and mahendra (need to change name) gufa, david falls and more.. hahahahahahhaha.

bdayHey yea, happy b’day Phanindra sir. Time was for disco (tapaile na lage pani) k garnu wish ta ratinai gariyo.. ladies haru chandai sutnale gift on time dina paiyana as we planned (haina ta shree ?).

And at last, thanks bikramg(we are sorry ki tapaile office ma b da Linda pani hamile tyo time Pokhara visit garna use garna sakenou hai ) and bijayag for all of yours support and kind cooperation.

And now, again linux, PHP, hosting, domains, readnepal, thexmax, bestcommercetools, e-commerce (sorry Archana for delay for that project la) and website generator (doing for NITC, Nepal) and so on things.. however life is going on. Kasai sanga gunaso chaina kunai kurama pani. Heheh

Please post your comment la how you enjoyed on your year and your plan for this year.

No one is perfect here… No one… me, you and no one…

MeAnd yea, there are many good and positive things… that indicates you… helps to know about you… to love you… to be in touch with you… to think about you… and to dream about you.. May be some good points are with me… surely no doubt…

My guys, loving friends… could you please let me know about my good and bad points that you have ever felt… with me… and want to continue good things and think… without those points… how I can be better and better… like you ;). Yea, that will help me to improve myself to be I AM THE BEST.

Thanks for your 5 minutes… you have spent to remember me…

I LOVE TO READ ABOUT MY BAD POINTS :) COULD YOU PLEASE WRITE THAT TO ME ?

Hi..how was your day ?? I hope that was really good (if you are not alone)..if not..so bad ..isn’t.. (sisno le polyo mana mana)..

However..it was “THIKAI” to me.. Ambika sir ko..b’day thiyo..and we meet at “HOT..” café..baneshwor..”don’t remember..exactly..we was around 25-30 peoples..and mera maan pareka manchhe haru..pani thiya tyaha…quite good… (iid ko class liyara aauda..ali dhilo bhayo..)

And yea.. euta kura lekhna mann chha..fursad na bhayar…. Meat ra dirnk nagarne (non drink and veg) harule .. party ma kasari.. enjoy garne.. mero problem.. sometimes..feel bored..

Would like to write ..something about this topics.. but later. “ahile valentine day” ko kura chha..

I have read blog of niks and archana.. good love story.. archana.. I wish I will have same kind of success love story….and yea.. I need to respect all of yours successful love story of kaushal ,suresh (maharjan..), diwa, rajan sir, suraj (?), ..(they are married)

Please post your comment

I love to read quotes. I have got some quotes from sadhana’s blog and copied from there.

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“Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing.”

“Each of us must be the change we want to see in the world.”

“A life is only as important as the effect it has on other lives.”

“If you want to lift yourself up, lift up someone else.”

“Friends are the angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.”

“Imagination is more important than knowledge.”

“There is creative vision in each of us, but sometime it’s hard to get that creative part started.”

“There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, and learning from failure.”

“The closer one gets to the top, the more one finds there is no top.”

“In order to succeed you must fail, so that you know what not to do the next time.”

“Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly.”

“Failure is success if we learn from it.”

“In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure.”

“Excuses are the nails used to build a house of failure.”

“Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently.”

“You don’t get paid for the hour. You get paid for the value you bring to the hour.”

“I do not pray for a lighter load, but for a stronger back.”

“Success is the good fortune that comes from aspiration, desperation, perspiration and inspiration.”

“If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.”

“A mind, once stretched by a new idea, never regains its original dimensions.”

“What you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.”

“Wisdom is knowing what to do next; skill is knowing how to do it, and virtue is doing it.”

“Never doubt the power of a small group of committed people to change the world. That’s about the only way it has ever happened in the past.”

“We are the music makers. We are the dreamers of the dreams.”

“We are as gods, so we might as well get good at it.”

“I was hungry and you gave me food; I was thirsty and you gave me drink; I was a stranger and you took me in; I was naked and you clothed me; I was sick and you visited me; I was in prison and you came to me. I thirsted for knowledge, and you gave me an opportunity to learn.” Jesus.

“In every idea a multitude of new ideas is lying dormant.”

“The earliest you can start any project is now.”

Dear Guys…

I am 24 years old now. I have added 1 year on my previous age and reduce 1 year from my life.

Actually I don’t like to celebrate my birth day. Past years.. I haven’t celebrated as well ( I have got my b’day date at class 9). However, last year we have enjoyed on lazimpat where we used to work (Archana, Suresh, Kaushal, Pravash and Vinayak)g altogether. This year, I am not planning to celebrate as well but this decision can be change when I will get solution to celebrate (how and where).

Feeling, heart and brain. Do you think, I have not any feelings? I don’t think so (because I am not abnormal) but some guys said to me.. I have not feelings and used to work/think through brain always. However I don’t think so. I have feelings. But some conditions can be different. As I think, I am too sensible and small things can make happy to me and heart to me.

When you were waiting for time to add 1 year on your age (it’s a progress) same time (near about 0 am) if someone calls you, someone sends you greetings, someone sends you sms and someone sends email to you to make wise( waiting till midnight on winter.. that is hard to do) that makes person happy. And yesterday night same things happen to me. Thanks guys for all of you. I have felt I was on a joy. I can’t express how I am feeling but it’s a great feelings that I can ever enjoy, I can ever remember and I would like to ever do .Really that was a moment that can be remember minimum till next time (not year) when you will make wise to me again.

Thanks all of you and happy b’day to me.

Near DAMAN

Happy b’day arzun sir

It’s a great day. As usual we have enjoyed (?). There was a little difference (not more) way to enjoy on this year. We (I think near 25, not exactly) have visited Daman (a beautiful places when it’s snowing) and came back. :) We have missed you sriju today (However it’s good..that I think). Hope your chitwan trip enjoyful.

Nothing to say today. May be for arzun sir…I need to tell something…but…but (I have no words to say).

I have not camera and mobile with that features. I will post snap here if possible to get from those people who cached up that moment.

Happy b’day again and enjoy.

Hi guys, its 0 am Jan 1 2007(here it Nepal) and happy new year to all. I hope new year will be progressive and more productive for all of you as well me  . Actually last year, it was much productive to me comparatively other latest years that I have stayed here in Kathmand (it was already 4 years).

Yea.. Some relations made new and some relations clear confusions that I was supposed to.. Among them, some are inexpertly heart to me.  But it’s a time that can be wrong anytime and can be good any moments and I am able and capable to handle myself on all bad situations. That I think a Brave man 

Professionally it was good to me. I have become Redhat Certified Engineer (RHCE) on last march and have learned some new things on PHP. I have started IBB and readNepal.com with new team SOM (school of marketing) and I think it will go on till coming Dec. minimum. We are doing some good things on it and hoping it will show something new here in Nepal.

Moreover, I have started to update my own site regularly and try to clear all gaps on communications with my guys (who want to read me  ).

Last night, it was so wonderful and we enjoyed much. First time I have danced a lot. I have forgotten all things at that time and enjoyed and enjoyed with friends (however it was family gathering on Suraj’s room)

For 2007, nothing… I am supposed to be Oracle certified and want to be a graduate. Then, nothing to say and may be some new things I will do but don’t know what.

Have a great and joyful new year 2007.